About Me

My preference is on sites that don't hang around waiting to load a Java VM or a flash Macromedia Plug-in then to find that the PC is not powerful enough to render it well.

Resume ^

From my resume you would see as much and Microsoft makes me sick I am very much a uses of their products and technology.
Key areas:

• WIN2k/IIS/MSMQ/MTS/VB6/ADO/COM+/SQL2000/DHTML/HTML/XML/ActiveX/API-win32/ISAPI/ASP/Z Notation/JavaScript/Java/WebSphere/Rational Rose  UML/OO/Reuse....yawn
• Implementation Support/Inter-Operability/Operations/Automation/B2B/B2C/P2P/Content Management

General Interests ^

Most of this is general

• My biggest Passion is SM Dog Training, and for all the hard work, the Doghouse has been worthwhile, it has a deep intrinsic value, though my BF is a computer widow sometimes. We still share are passion for sports bikes and the leather clad bikers that ride them. Nothing quite like a group of bikers going out on a perfect summers day as a pack of leather bikers.
  
• I am a bit of a techno Geek and my personal browser home page is usually msdn  
  
• Sport wise like most people I am down the gym (lunch time for me) but I also love Basket Ball and Volley Ball as passion also have others  -the smaller the ball the less interest I have :)
  
• Sci-fi/Horror fan.. Sad but true
  I really love anything that stimulates the mind into new possibilities, stretching your thinking your mental horizons with the "Which means & and then what" expansion.
  Well into horror, gothic horror is the purest for me.

Loves  ^

• Along with my family, My lover is #1, I met him when he was at University and have been with him for over 16 years.
• I love my slaves and my Master.
• My Motorbike and biking
• Some of the exciting technology that comes out of Microsoft.
• Deep religion - would not bore you with it, but it is covered in many 'New Age' book shops.
• Buddhism - not a religion but a damn good way of life. I would term myself as a Zen Christian
• I love history, why things happened.
  I like religious history not this is what the bible said, but what actually happened, that Jesus probably existed and what evidence supported that.
  More is the Likes section

Hates  ^

The Church ^

• Reincarnation: I do believe in it. You choose the life that you are to be born into, and with whom.
  You choose your parents, your sex, your sexuality. It has been said that you reincarnate with the same set of souls - onetime one of the souls was your husband and in the next life it is your Mother - these I guess are the natural associations of those you love you choose to be with.
  You may be very lucky like me to find a lover that you feel like you have spent all time with, that you loved before, that you will love again.
  
• Mediums: I have no problem with mediums such as Edgar Clacye, or people who Channel. They are connected to old sprits (intelligence/Angels/ or what have you). That offer help - you can take that help or leave it. It is said that more and more 'proof' of  humanities connection to God and the evidence of his sprit will become more obvious in the this new age.
  I would say as humanity evolves he has more time to reflect on his sprit, his connection creation, his place and part of the world.
  There are many psychics that are not Charlatans, those friends that have done predictions for me have been spot on. It has been suggested that if the future is like a sort of wave (manifest in the astral world) that is approaching us, then the clairvoyant has a better long range vision that can see further than the rest of us.
  
• The Separation: This is the separation from God. The after the "Adam ate the apple" state. Before this we did know know fear, did not know hate, were not insecure because we knew that God was there with us. After the separation his touch slipped from our hands. Just like a small child feels lost with out the Parent there - so this is manifest with the separation from God. The Separation is the fear that we have lost God, the insecurity breeds hate (hate and fear are of   the same coin). We hate what we fear, we fear what we don't know or cannot control or is not like us. Are only salvation is to restore our relationship with God with in us. This follows no doctrine of any church, but with meditation, reflection, quiet listening you get that little bit closer.
  God is in you, in all of us (otherwise we would be dead) - we may choose not to listen to him.
  
• Heaven: Is much like here. There is the residual image of those who have passed over. They remember they were female or male or gay or straight.
  This is such a strong memory that they forget that they are in fact neither male or female they are of God, plucked form 'him' in the moment of their original creation. They will in countless rebirths gather experience of Gods creation, and all that is not God and eventually return to God. When these souls 'die' or pass over in heaven they move into the next level. So just as we have a barrier between this plane and Heaven so do they with the next.
  To me it makes perfect sense that that it is not practical to have the co-existence of such vastly different life forms in the one place as the physics that apply to each world are relevant to the occupiers. Just as 'Time' is a human concept and is quite irrelevant in the world of sprit, or to be more correct is 'measured'  quite differently.
  Time was allow for us to practice our creation. In Spirit creation is at the speed of thought, you can consider the impact that could have in this world, its taken us quite some time to punch holes the Ozone layer, to have two world wars, to turn turn areas of Japan to ash, to gas so many of Hitler's unwanted!
  We have the blessing of time and reflection of what we have done and how we can practice our creative skills, how we can learn to love and share, and learn the lessons that might be uncomfortable.
  Likewise having no spiritual body means a closer level of intimacy is possible with those that you love - I cannot get close enough to the one I love, I wonder what it would be like to hug someone so much that you occupy the same space, to be both one and yet individual.
  What happens when you no longer see a separation that you are one with God.
  So if there is no reality of Male or Female in Sprit only when incarnated unto earth, how can there be Homosexuality (or Heterosexuality), let alone an objection from God. So what then if in your previous life you current Husband was your Mother - is that Incest!
  
• ZenChristian  So after searching long and hard. My God (who for comfort sake I refer to as male) is one with  universal unconditional love, encompasses the above,  that we came from him and we return to him. During our time from him we learn/experience  new things which in the fullness of time we bring all that we have back to him.
  God is with in us all, even when for our convenience we choose not to believe that fact.
  Feelings might be different when Lord Jesus Christ is strapped into a Gas Chamber chair and we watch him choke to death for 20 minuets on cyanide gas.
  When the Nazis choose to believe that they were the superior race as they racially cleansed the Fatherland of Jews and Hitler's unwanted.
  When the Conquistadors from Spain went to South America and said that Blacks we animals with no soul - this is why they were slaves and could be used and killed with no guilt, and no loss of faith to God.
  When the Pope ordered the genocide of all the Gnostics, forgiving the sins of the armies before they committed their atrocities.
  If TheChurch can do such evil it has no place in my life.
  I choose to distance myself from other so called "Christians" and other Bible worshipers as they have chosen their separation from God.
  
  And yet what of the stories of the "Good Samaritan" did he ask if the fellow he helped was an unmarried lesbian or a gay guy - there was unconditional compassions and love in his heart. Even though the bible was written by man as he tried to represent he personal belief in God, the Bible contains contradictions. Those that choose to high light one section in favour of another indicates more about them than God.
  I recognize that there are some Churches that are honest to god. There are a number of members of the Doghouse that are also Christians, so it is nice to examine the balance of being a slave, being devoted to your Master and Owner, sit when you sing in church.
  That page is to follow.
  
• Creative Visualization: Well this works for me. It has got all that is important to me. I cannot recommend it highly enough.
  I have me beliefs in how it works but then do you need to know the physics of electricity to turn a light on.
  If you go to the gym or are into competitive sport, you really must investigate this.

Why the establishment known as The Church is ungodly, and has nothing to do with my God or faith.

• The Church. I am sure that there must exist some churches that preach unconditional love. But never seen one. Then you have the Catholic Church that is responsible to the HIV epidemic in less developed parts of the world due to its dogma on not using Durex/prophylactics - where First world Catholics just ignore the pope when it suits them.
  I have recently been made aware of  some Gay Churches  (one in LA California) that was started well over 40 years ago - this church being different to typical GayChristians who live with a the anti-gay message that the church promotes. There are of course other religions who are quite indifferent on the issue of Homosexuality, typically in countries less fuck-up about sex.
  
• Reincarnation: This was part of early Christianity,  but was removed when the 'faithful' said they would may for their sins in the Karma of their next reincarnation. So to stop them living on credit and for the Church to retain control it removed the fact from its religion.
  Just one example how the 'message' was twisted and edited to suit Man not God.
  
• Purgatory: This was invented to allow the church to raise more money, to allow you to buy your way into Heaven.
  Other religions allow you to buy good Karma more by good deeds, however it is "The Church" that determines the Value of the payment, not God.
  
• The Virgin Mary. In those days a Virgin included anyone who was not with child, either because they were unmarried, old, infertile or whatever - it had nothing to do with a ruptured virginal membrane.
  Through out all religions the Gods with making women Pregnant, it was so convenient that the truth - they had sex with a Man who what not the husband, and being a 'good girl' they would not have done that would they!!!.
  Likewise the Jews were all told that one of them was to bare the Messiah, so to refer to "my son the Messiah" is much like today's "my son the Dentist".
  Rising from the dead. In so when he was cut down after a few hours, his unconscious body was left to recover by those who cared for him. When recovered those that saw him expect to be dead were well surprised, as most people there were left there for days, as no one cared for them and it was more usual for the soldiers to give the victim a quick death by stabbing him.
  
• The sons of Abraham I was told by a Baptist that people really did live for 400 years  in those days that is how you could account for the huge spans of time. Then we refer to the 'The Lost Year, from Jesus childhood to when he was a 30year old. These lost years are also convenient to forget - where did he go, India, Japan, Britain, the States - there are many 'wannabe' romantic notions. One is that after his 'ascension to heaven' he  went to live his remaining years with his wife in an island off Japan.
  Thought does it really matter ?
  It only matters if you need God to supports your hates and fears for you.
  
• The God of Abraham The Early Egyptians had just one God that was every where. Then it was changed to many Gods. In Abraham's day it was still believed that their 'God' traveled with with them.
  Building  graven images of your God was quite a normal thing - but they missed the point. God did not need to be built, he was part of the physics, the nature of the universe that we exist in. Just like saying Protons only exist in a Synagogue.
  
• Repent: The End of the World is Neigh. So in the year 2000, the world is going to end. Some death cults said it was earlier so had a mass suicide to prove the point. The year 2000 was to add some urgency to the repenting process. This is a common salesman trick in closing the sale, otherwise the victim will take too long making up his mind.
  
• The Law of God The early editors of the Bible had the creations myths  and the great flood myths from both the North and South Babylonians. Both these two versions were included (who could say which was the 'right one'). This is why it both rained forty days and forty nights as well as raining 100 days and 100 nights. Same with the Creation myth, you get one version and then a few pages on, it all repeats again.
  Fundamentalist usually say its "Clarification" (but it is fundamentally different) or a  denial  "I don't know that bit".
  Jews  also moved Gods teaching, healthy living and the laws of the land into one.
  This meant that it was not the state telling you to obey, but almighty GOD himself!!!
  There would be more suspicion in the Highways agency said it was Gods Holy Laws that forbade you to drive faster that 55mph!
  Other laws like you must not eat meat that was not killed to Gods law (you never knew what it died of), you must not eat sea food that crawls (the poisonous dead mans finger in Crab can kill). You must not go out at night wearing scented oils (someone might mistake a 'good Jew bow' as a Homosexual, and since Jews are not Homosexuals, this cannot be).
  Heterosexuality (and lots of it) was encouraged to boost up the numbers. Hence with Mormons to build up that tribe.
  Same with the Catholics forbidding contraception (though they soon got used to ignoring the bits of the Bible that we not convenient to them).